Chapter 0739 "I grew up fearing and hating my father, and I can say that now. But my daughter doesn't have to feel that way. Her father wasn't the best person, but I can't judge the demons that brought him to that point." "Did you ever imagine going back to Maximus?" "No, never. I could never go back to him. He was a beautiful and painful chapter of my life. It would be foolish to return just because he whispered sweet words to me.
"That said, I'm grateful to him for our daughter. I'm thankful for everything he's done forthese past few months.
"If someone had toldthat Maximus would be the one helpingthrough all of this today, I would have laughed. The idea of being anywhere near him was impossible to me. But In the end, tis wise-it healed our wounds and allowed us to see each other differently.
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇt"That doesn't mean everyone does the same, but in my case, life gavethe chance to see another side of Maximus. I'm incredibly grateful for that because it has made everything easier today." "And what about Peter?" Valerie stopped gazing out the window and walked to the couch, lying down as though the question had touched a difficult nerve.
"Peter..." she said with a deep sigh. "Peter is... Peter is someone very important to me. He and I, from the beginning, had a rocky story. Neither of us had the courage to make it something formal when we had the chance." "Later, when I divorced Maximus, I have to admit, circumstances ledback to Peter. He went out of his way to prove what he hadn't in the past. But my heart was already broken. It painsto admit it, but I have to be honest with myself what I felt for him at that twasn't love.
"I didn't love him the way he loved me. I was grateful that he gavea chance, that he wanted to erase the past and acceptwith my baby. I was grateful for the future he offered me. It hurts to say it, but that's the truth," Valerie said, her eyes filling with tears.
"Why does it hurt to admit that?" "Because I spent so many years feeling guilty about it. Peter gave us his best. He cared for us, he loved us, and he showed us every day that being with him was worth it. But, being completely honest and mature... how could/ love him in just four months? Before that, I had loved his brother. I loved him, and I hated myself for it-for feeling what I felt when Maximus had been my worst demon.
"When Peter died, it broke me. It shattered the idea that I'd never see him again. And I hated myself even more for not being able to value him when I had the chance. I hated myself because I had the opportunity to live a wonderful life by his side, and I squandered the moments I had with him-because of my fears and the demons in my head.
"I know I gave it my all during those four months. He was happy-I know that. But a part ofalso understands that he realized the truth." "What truth, Valerie?" "That I couldn't love him the way he loved me. I know he figured it out. He never said it, and he never will, but now, when I've had the chance to look into his eyes-even just in my memories-I know a part of him understood. He knew. And that's why, even though it hurts to admit, he didn't clooking for me.
"I understand now that when he had the chance to reappear in my life, he chose to stay in the shadows. Something 1/2 Chapter 0739 inside him fold him it was better that way-for both of us.
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"I cried for him. I mourned his death. I grieved for how he died. I lived through all of it, because it happened el to me. But if I'm completely honest, much of that pain was guilt-guilt for not loving him the way he loved me," Valerie said, her tears falling freely.
"Let it out, Valerie. Cry," Dr. Hill urged gently. "It's tto release what you've been holding inside it's tto heal. It's tto let it go. No one but you knows what you've endured all this time. No one but you has the right to judge you. And no one but you has the power to heal yourself. I've "You've taken a huge step by acknowledging what you feel you've done incredible work on yourself—you" forgiven, and you've let go.
"Now it's tto forgive yourself. You were a young, inexperienced woman whose life changed overnight. Two men cinto your life, and each showed you different paths.
"They both had their time. They both taught you what you needed to learn. m They both prepared yo@forthe future. They both showed you what you want as a woman. And they both led you to the person you have by your side today. "You can't keep feeling guilty about that."